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(Thursday, May 18, 2006-)
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My friends and I have got a new blog.
http://www.cunts-and-roses.blogspot.com
The blogskin is a lil weird coz i did it overnight. We wanted to do something that includes the X men theme..perhaps after xmen is over we'll change it to something a lil more obscene. Our blog name is cunts and roses afterall. (gross)
I want to eat lesser. Not coz i want to loose weight (yeah sure i want to loose the flab) but because i think ive been spending too much money on food already and im not too proud of that.
This semester is rather challenging. It's like everyone is giving us a workload. STRESS? you can say tt again.
Im happy. Even though i sleep lesser and i do sch work. Im happy.
Just yesterday my friend broke up with her boyfriend. It was a nasty scene.
Sometimes i wish everything could be less complicated for everyone.
Just helped my grandmother with her earrings. Her skin is so frail and she has about 3 ear holes on each side of her ear. But all of them are so enlarged. I tried to shift the earrings to the highest holes but they still seemed to be dangling off her ears. In the end i told her not to wear them at all. The holes that the earrings were removed from looked so raw and red. Is this what being old is like?
you got me hiding under my bed
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(Wednesday, March 29, 2006-)
+3/29/2006 03:40:00 PM]*
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So im sitting down here in front of my new laptop. Im lucky coz my parents decided to get it for me first. But now ive to work extra hard to pay them both in cash and household chores.
Im having a rather annoying case of flu right now. My bro's been painting the house and the smell sure isnt helping me one bit.
The weather is slightly chilly, expected since it has been raining for a few hours. The sky is still pretty dark. It's one cloudy overcast sky.
I watched Opera just now. I just cant help but marvel at the way she conducts every talkshow. She's so professional and she always asks the right questions. Questions she knows that audiences want answered. Im sure she's fucking rich, but at least she contributes to society. I don't mean contribute as in just donating to charity. She actually invites people and addresses problems like people suffering from natural disasters, abuse, disorders and many other things that we read about but have no power over.
I wanna dance. Haven clubbed in a really long time.
Hold my hand yeah. And i'll show u how mighty crazy this world can be.
you got me hiding under my bed
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(Friday, March 17, 2006-)
+3/17/2006 02:16:00 AM]*
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Everytime i think im going to make blogging a daily affair im wrong. I've stopped so many times, taken long vacations in between blog entries and then i've reached a point where i cant talk about today coz i didn't blog about yesterday.
My dramatic life has gone past the point of being over exaggerated so no one will believe what i said even if i wrote it as a fiction. In the past few months however, i know that there are many people i can rely on and will give my support to when they need help. They've been my only saving grace from the hectic mass comm life and i truly thank them.
Confusion is the top of my problem although i tell myself to quit it. You see, confusion does not leave u. It deliberates and suffocates you; then it lossens its grip. But all these while you think it's gone. It's not. It's noose still hangs around your neck.
i wish insanity came before confusion. it's so much easier to deal with insanity then to deal with confusion. coz when u're insane, you're caught up in a world that revolves around you and the issue that keeps u insane. When you're confused you're everywhere but no where in particular.
purple chipped nails
buckets and red pails
these colours aren't real
pretty pink hearts
golden brown tarts
they're nothing but art
everything's so ugly
everything's so ugly
even pretty flowers
and poster girls
they're just nothing
just nothing at all
imma confess
i might repress
holding on to pieces
i thought i'd let go
imma confess
my life's a mess
seeing all these people
i thought i'd known
everything's so ugly
everything's so ugly
even pretty flowers
and poster girls
they're just nothing
just nothing at all
you got me hiding under my bed
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(Saturday, January 07, 2006-)
+1/07/2006 03:46:00 AM]*
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Tuk tuk tuk. The sound dots make when they drop. Last few happy hours mashed with sleep in my still waking land of forever.Pretty dancing droplets of blue tear splashes. The endlessness of this beginning is eating up my existance. CD covers lying in the middle of deep blue latex and staples stuck beneath them in a lolita fashion.The bright orange cup is staring so hard it wants to burst but it cannot because it is solidly imperfect. Sleep is calling out from my soft flower bed and the sweater on it says no i must wait. Are you skin that makes me crawl? I want senses that have no six in them and do not tell me hot from cold. Happy hearing to my gleeful smile pasted on a face that hides sceneries. The pretty black clicks and blinks and tinks. wet hair cannot be sleeped in.
you got me hiding under my bed
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(Monday, December 26, 2005-)
+12/26/2005 12:25:00 PM]*
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Yesterday was cool. I woke up, played maple story (yeah Johnmin i know i killed lotsa snails) and played it till I got scolded by my mum. Then I went out shopping with her. Unfortunately due to the bad cough and flu I didn't enjoy myself as much. After that my parents and I had dinner together till quite late (we usually have dinner early). Went out with my mates( Aloy and Ethan) after tt. We went shopping for presents(actually they already did theirs so i had to do my share). We bought a present for Felicia (da lil girl at the LAN shop). We met Izzat at suntec where the guys were collecting their chocs for Adri. We went down to town after that coz i wanted to get my second part of Adri's present but it was too late. Muahaha. So in the end we all accompanied Zat to Macs to eat. Aloy and Ethan spotted a hot eurasian girl (well cant blame them coz she came to the bin near us) and she took their breaths away. ( YOU SHLD HAVE SEEN THEM ADRI!)So then we made our way to the LAN shop on a taxi. Funny shit, me and zat poking poor Aloy on the way. He looked like he had spasms or something.
It was crowded at the LAN shop. We saw Felicia and gave her the present. HAHa..her parents (who own the shop) felt so bad they gave use chocs each and a drink "on the house". We waited 2 hours until some guys vacated. But within that time we brought Felicia with us across the road coz we had to draw money. Her mum said "must hold jie jie's hand ok?" to her before we left. But she ended up poking Aloy and making fun of his hair all the time.
So finally we got to play DOTA. Ethan,Zat and me against Aloy and Terence. Adri played maple story. muahaha. Aloy and Terence were good, they scored the highest hero scores. But we managed to beat them coz we had more people...muahaha..so all's fair?
okie so went home in a cab with Zat. Felt happy. tried to sleep. Felt sad. Thoughts coming through my mind again. The usual stuff. Give it up Wendy. So then i finally fall asleep. Wake up at 5.30am coz my mum was leaving for HK. But she told me to sleep on coz I was out till so late. So yep, I talked to her for abit then went back to sleep. Took me another 1 hour to get the thoughts out of my head before I went back to sleep. Then I'm up again. Gonna go to Aloy's house to do feature together. Im still sick with the same cough and flu. lol. Aloy insists on coming over to help carry my lappie. Those guys. Cant live with them, cant live without them.
love u all.
that's all for now.
you got me hiding under my bed
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(Saturday, December 24, 2005-)
+12/24/2005 02:33:00 PM]*
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The vicious cycle
Girl 1 has a boyfriend (Guy 1) -> Guy 2 likes Girl 1 -> Girl 1 has problems in relationship -> Guy 2 talks to Girl 1 alot and they find themselves attracted to one another -> Girl 1 breaks up with Guy 1 -> Girl 1 goes out with Guy 2 -> Girl 1 and
Guy 2 get together -> Eventually they break up......................
Girl 2 has a boyfriend (Guy 3) -> Guy 2 likes Girl 2 -> do I really have to repeat myself?
Wasted myself last night because I was right about stuff. I just knew it would happen and I even knew who it would concern. Yet I told myself it was anothing but a self fulfilling prophecy. But then it wasn't. Last night told me that instincts don't lie all the time.
I wouldn't even ask why her because I can't think of another her you would consider. I cant dislike her. And that frustrates me. I can dislike you, but im just not doing that. Pretty, glossy and happy. Your new found excitement coupled with sadness for only half her heart can be taken by you for now.
Enter that world and the cycle is bound to repeat.
Christmas
The bright lights and shiny presents under the tree. A day supposedly to commemorate the birth of Christ. But now made glamorous. Underneath all that, a bunch of money making industries scheming to pollute our minds with their endless propaganda. We spend and delight ourselves in the luxuries that come only a few times a year. Deep inside our inner self demands to know why we are being tricked into this whole business. All smiles, all laughs. How about the pain, the hurt and the poor. Who's to be there for them? Poor in the pocket but rich in the heart.
Tonight I'm gonna be celebrating in my relatives house. lol. its been a long time.
you got me hiding under my bed
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(Thursday, December 22, 2005-)
+12/22/2005 01:46:00 AM]*
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Im feeling sad.
Just sad and more upset.
This feeling's flooding through me.
If only I could even say why.
you got me hiding under my bed
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